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Tucker on Friday the 27th


Dad, Mom & Tucker on Thursday the 26th...can't wait to get Maeli in there too!

Friday

Jeremy survived a day in Pullman without us, but is quite anxious to see his baby in the morning. Mom, Maeli, and I got to the hospital this morning and I was able to spend most of the day touching Tucker. It was wonderful! He is doing well, and they've started to feed him a little bit through a feeding tube. An attempt was made to take him off the blood pressure medicine completely, but he's back on it, in a low dose for now. He's getting stronger and little more feisty, they try to let him be as active as he wants to be until he starts pulling at his tubes, then they have to help him relax a little bit. But we continue to move in the right direction, they're hoping to take out the tube by Monday, but we'll see how the weekend goes. He won't get to come home until he can breath and eat on his own. But we'll take it one day at a time.

I am so sorry to all my friends who so badly want to talk to me, I promise that I would call if there was something that I needed, but actually talking to other women about my sick baby just tears me apart. Blogging is one thing, and he really is doing well, but I'm holding things together as best as I can, and I fear that calling any of you back would push me over the edge. Thank you for your calls, and in a few days I'll start calling people back. In the mean time please keep praying and thinking of us and I appreciate all your efforts, I just can't talk about it in real life yet.

Update

We're in Pullman now getting some chores and errands done while we're here for my Doctor's appointment. We went to see Tucker this morning before we left. They've been able to lower his blood pressure medicine a lot, and they think he might even be off of it by morning. He was more alert when they were doing his diaper and stuff at lunch time, and he's basically having a good day. We're all going to try and gets lots of sleep so that we can be back to Spokane in the morning. Jeremy has to stay in Pullman tomorrow so he can go to class in preparation for his mid-terms on Monday...bad timing. We'll all be together in Spokane again for the weekend, and hopefully by Monday we'll have more great news, and Jeremy will have been able to study at least a little.

A long but good day

We had trouble finding an Internet connection...sorry. Tucker had a good day, we got to help change his diaper, and touch him a lot more. I got to help clean his neck, and keep his mouth moist. They flipped him onto his belly for a while, to give him a little variety, he actually looked more comfortable that way. His XRay looked better today, and he had an ECG, but we won't know how that turned out until the morning. He seemed a little more alert, more kicking and a little fighting of the tube, but they're not keeping him as medicated, so that's a good thing. They also gave him some blood, just to give him a little more energy, and help him feel a little better. We're all pretty worn out, physically and emotionally. I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow in Pullman, so we have to head over there after our morning visit, I'm hoping we won't have to leave to many times without the whole family. I just realized that we don't have any pictures of Jeremy with the baby, mostly because he's usually taking them, but Jeremy is very actively involved with taking to doctors and nursing, and doing everything they'll let him do with Tucker.

Here He Is!

Ummm...the "Fresh" look?

The First time I got to see him

At the NICU..he's by far the biggest guy in the room!
Officially the third time I saw him, but the first time that lasted over 40 seconds.
He's still making slow progress, and it sounds like it'll be a few days still before we get to hold him, but everyone is confident that WHEN, not if, he gets better he'll be strong and healthy. Maeli can't see him, but I think that's probably good, she doesn't really understand that's he born yet, and I think she would be scared. I feel better having seem him and I did get to touch him a little. We'll be back in the morning to see how the night went, but he is really cute and even opened his eyes a little bit for me.

Green Light

I'm going to go see my new Baby...I'll upload pictures when we get to Spokane and I look at him for a while.

Touched

Jeremy's sister Glenna and her family drove up to Spokane from Vancouver last night so that they could be with Jeremy at the hospital. Jeremy sounds a lot better on the phone and I feel so much better knowing that he's not alone. I know there are dozens of people who offered and who are willing to do anything we need right now, and I appreciate it all so much. There isn't much news on Tucker; Glenna, who is also an ICU nurse thinks he looks really good. It makes me feel better to have a medical and yet a personal point of view. I'm just overwhelmed with gratitude for everyone we know. We're probably still looking at a stressful few days, but I just wanted to say thanks to everyone for your thoughts and prayers.

No Go

Saw the doctor this morning, he wants me to push it a little today and we'll talk about going home tomorrow morning. He just wants to make sure that I'm in a little better shape before he sends me off, so I'm getting my last dose of anti-biotics this morning, and then it sounds like I'll get to shower and try to get to feeling normal. I was really hoping that I would get to see Tucker today, but Jeremy is going to call me as soon as he gets the update from the new shift of nurses and everyone.

Mornin'

I called Deaconess this morning when I woke up. Tucker had a good night and his X-rays looks better this morning than it did when we got there. I think the nurse was trying to not give me too much info over the phone, so I'm sure I'll get more of a scoop when Jeremy gets to the hospital today. I haven't seen my doctor yet so I'm not sure what the plan is for me. I might be jumping the gun a little in my hopes of getting out today, but I'm anxious to see my boys.

Keep in Mind...

remember, its the middle of the night, and I'm on a fresh dose of pain killers, but I thought I'd post what I know. When Jeremy left the hospital last night Tucker was doing better. He had to have his tube adjusted and didn't tolerate it well, but once they opted to try and just leave him be as much as possible he started to calm down again. I remember when Maeli was born she didn't like having her position shifted, or being passed from person to person. She wanted to get comfortable and stay like that...sounds like Tucker is the same way, my kids just don't like change I guess. I've been up and out of bed once, and my doctor is going to come and see me first thing so we can talk about getting out of here, but a few crucial things have to happen first to be safe and they haven't really let me try to run my laps yet. If doesn't look like I'm going to be able to head out tomorrow we're hoping we can find someone to go to Spokane and spend some time with Jeremy. He's feeling a little helpless and I'm hoping some company will make some of the time go faster. But I really hope that company gets to be me. Tucker will have chest X-Rays in the morning to see if his lungs are opening up a little better. At last check the Left was working on it, and his right was still pretty goopy. Its sad for me to think if I could have kept him in there a little longer he would have been fine, but there was no way for anyone to know that at his size, he'd still be a little shy of ready. I trust the doctors and I trust that Jeremy knew what he was saying when he gave me a blessing last night. "the emotional and physical strength the endure the days ahead." First, days seems short, especially coming from the Lord, so I feel good about that. Second, I really do feel emotionally like thing will be alright. I'm yearning to snuggle him, but they wouldn't let me anyway, so maybe its better I'm not up there yet. The other thing is that Tucker's blessing indicated that he would be home with his family that loves him soon...I'm hoping that means us, and that the Lord's soon is similar to mine. In any even I am so grateful to have such a wonderful support system and I thank everyone who is praying for us and has offered to do whatever they can. I do promise to let you know what we need when it comes up. I'm going back to sleep know what my medicine is kicking in. We'll see what the morning update brings from Spokane.